Have you ever done something stupid as a mom and your child had to suffer for it? Well I did one of those stupid somethings and feel horrible about it. I am embarassed to say that I did this to my Carly but maybe putting it out in the open will prevent me from doing anything like it again.
So you know how the past few days and nights have been warm? I took advantage of that and opened some of the windows in the house to get some fresh air, Carly's room included. It got cool again and I didn't close the widows before bed last night. Not a problem for the rest of the house since nobody was in the rooms, all except for Carly's room. I'm sure you can see where I am going with this.
Carly has already been sick with a cough which makes me feel even worse. I heard her coughing throughout the night which is no different from any other night so I didn't worry about it. She woke up crying earlier than usual but not wanting to get her in the habit of waking up early, I let her lay in bed and cry herself back to sleep. Finally about 7:15 she woke up crying again and I went to get her to feed her. As soon as I opened the door I felt HORRIBLE. Her room was freezing and she wiggled free from her blanket. Luckily I had sweats on her but this happened to be the night that I didn't put on her footie long sleeved pj's. Her cheeks were bright pink and her nose was bright red and runny. Her legs, feet and hands were icecubes. I picked her up and held her tight and ran into my room to snuggle with her in my bed. The worst part was when I laid her down her body shook because it was so cold. Let me say again, I FELT HORRIBLE! I put the blanket over our heads and she nursed and started to warm up. She is fine now, toasty warm in socks, sweat shirt, sweatpants and a hoodie. We are headed to the dr for her cough and possible pneumonia from almost freezing to death later this afternoon. As for me, I still feel horrible and hope that one day she forgives me. And oh how I wish that I would have gone in to check on her when she woke up early. Instead she had to lay in bed, not knowing how to cover up with her blanket and freeze. (there, I think the knife went in a little further) Her window is closed, very tightly, possibly never to be opened again.
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Oh Lacy, DO NOT FEEL BAD. I have done this same thing. We like our house a little bit more cold at night so not long ago, like a couple of months ago, when it was really cold at night I thought if I just bundled the girls up we could keep it cold in the house. Josh and I LOVE sleeping in the cold. Anyway - Savannah woke up (and she was only like 3 or 4 months) and I went in to feed her. She had wiggled out of her blankets and even though she was wearing socks over her footy jammies, her hands and face were FREEZING. I felt SO bad. As I held her feeding her, everything felt like ice.
I think every mom has moments like this. It doesn't mean you are a bad mom. I think you are a great mom!! So don't beat yourself up. It happens to the best of us.
Poor Carly though!
And also, I would like to hear more about this crying it out. I have been letting Savannah cry it out a bit when she goes down at night. I go in every 5-10 minutes and don't pick her up but put her pacifier in and rub her back. I want her to sleep SO bad through the night. Lately she has been getting up three or four times in the night now. It is killing me! Do you let Carly cry in the middle of the night? I let Sydney cry it out like when she went to bed but she only got up once in the night. Savannah is killing me here. What do you do with Carly?
Okay, this was the longest note ever... Sorry!
Lacy, I know you feel badly, but don't be too hard on yourself. You didn't intentionally freeze her out. I'm sure she'll be just fine and she won't remember it. Don't feel too badly. We are all human and have plenty of things we would have done differently if we could go back. Don't waste time worrying on what ifs. You are a great mom and obviously love your kids, keep doing the best that you know how.
Leslie,
I am a big fan of crying it out. Carly never cries for very long though so it might be different for me than for you. At first I kept a bottle with water in it and it would soothe her. I never get up to feed her in the middle of the night. I feed her right before bed and she normally falls asleep which is going to be my hard thing to break. So I say try letting her cry it out. It may be difficult for the first few nights but worth a try!
Don't be too hard on yourself. I think we all have things like this happen as parents. I'm sure she won't remember it! Those pictures of the kids (previous post) are SO cute!
We all make our mistakes so don't fret about it too much. I have left Sienna in a poopy diaper (that I knew she had) all because I was making dinner and did not want to stop to change it. That resulted in the WORST diaper rash ever! I felt horrible, but I can't say I never did it again. Good thing you are taking her to the doctor though. Good luck and I hope she isn't too sick.
We all have our "feel terrible and can't believe we did it" moments...I know you know that, but having other moms admit it might help? I enjoy your blog. take care...shanny
and p.s. be glad you did this while living in the state you live in..couldn't have been better, right?
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