Have you ever done something stupid as a mom and your child had to suffer for it? Well I did one of those stupid somethings and feel horrible about it. I am embarassed to say that I did this to my Carly but maybe putting it out in the open will prevent me from doing anything like it again.
So you know how the past few days and nights have been warm? I took advantage of that and opened some of the windows in the house to get some fresh air, Carly's room included. It got cool again and I didn't close the widows before bed last night. Not a problem for the rest of the house since nobody was in the rooms, all except for Carly's room. I'm sure you can see where I am going with this.
Carly has already been sick with a cough which makes me feel even worse. I heard her coughing throughout the night which is no different from any other night so I didn't worry about it. She woke up crying earlier than usual but not wanting to get her in the habit of waking up early, I let her lay in bed and cry herself back to sleep. Finally about 7:15 she woke up crying again and I went to get her to feed her. As soon as I opened the door I felt HORRIBLE. Her room was freezing and she wiggled free from her blanket. Luckily I had sweats on her but this happened to be the night that I didn't put on her footie long sleeved pj's. Her cheeks were bright pink and her nose was bright red and runny. Her legs, feet and hands were icecubes. I picked her up and held her tight and ran into my room to snuggle with her in my bed. The worst part was when I laid her down her body shook because it was so cold. Let me say again, I FELT HORRIBLE! I put the blanket over our heads and she nursed and started to warm up. She is fine now, toasty warm in socks, sweat shirt, sweatpants and a hoodie. We are headed to the dr for her cough and possible pneumonia from almost freezing to death later this afternoon. As for me, I still feel horrible and hope that one day she forgives me. And oh how I wish that I would have gone in to check on her when she woke up early. Instead she had to lay in bed, not knowing how to cover up with her blanket and freeze. (there, I think the knife went in a little further) Her window is closed, very tightly, possibly never to be opened again.